Character development writing task

13th of may 2013

Anton checkov monologue exercise

I don't know what to feel, he just so friendly and lovely i can't seem to get him out of my mind. He isn't like most most guys i have ever been with, but it is suppose to mean nothing, i told him that but what are these feelings happening how can i not feel nothing, nothing but pure love for him. So how do i stop thinking about him. I could just stop texting him, just go never see him again change my phone everything, but he will always be in my mind. I never thought i'd get this personal, what is wrong with me, i mean i only met him a few months ago. Sure he was quite attractive but i never would think i would actually love him. Not now... Now i know what Monday felt with me.He must feel the same way, he must. I mean how can it not be, we laugh, his lists of interest match mine, we play squash, i mean if he didn't come to munchies and not want to get involved why would he be here. he is just like me... Yeah, just like me. I helped him no one else, i showed him all these things maybe he will finally open up to me. Tonight's the night I'm just gonna say it, peter i have feelings for you. But still what if he thinks differently it not like he is just gonna open up and fling his cock out at me. Then again we did organised a sex party together anything can happen.

Next exercise three life changing points in your characters life.

Ø  getting married, his first and only love at the time

Ø  having his child the happiest thing ever to happen

Ø  wife is to tired from work not enough sex, goes on internet to find NSA fun

Experience

The date on which this happened, were where you told about this, who were you with at the time this happen, quick explaination about why (optional), last thing who you are saying this speech too.

 can remember like it was yesterday, it was 25th of march 2007 and i was in my car driving to do an emergency plumbing at some grumby old house which looked like the whole thing would come down. Tell you the old women bored the hell about her grand kids growing up and telling her to go to old folks home. Luckly i was with my mate josh who was with me one this job. Once we finally got her to away from us my wife suddenly starts calling me. Now here me thinking what does this women want again, can't she tell im working.  Miss call her but she keeps ringing so i got the picked up the phone and said what do you want love? To my surprise it wasn't her but her mom. Telling me to come to Chelsea hospital your wife is having the baby. I tell ya it was like i was hit but a bus, i could feel anything but joy. I raced to the van leaving josh to finish the job, and i sped through the busy traffic to get there. I don't really now how i felt, just so many things were racing through at once, but as i got closer i started to feel this nervous chill coming up my spine. Then you feel this doubt, what if im ready, can i really be a good father, what if he doesn't like me. All these questions start arising but as you get closer these questions start to fade away as the eagerness to see you own so  being born. It took my wife carol 6 hours to give birth but as i came into the hospital room i saw him, and i felt this warm glow, a bubbling feeling which i guess all fathers feel when they see their child for the first time. Just pure joy and a moment of peace that now you start your life as a proper family. Just me, my child and my wifes mother, i have never been so happy after that. So what i say to you micheal is if you really want to have this baby it will make such a great change in your life that nothing can compare to it.